Monthly Archives: November 2008


So a Couple Weeks ago I had wrote about my favorite record of the year and someone asked me to list a group of maybe ten favs. So here you go. These are 10 records that I think are stellar and yet you might not know about them. Enjoy!!!!!!








shayes_fs_lg1Sean Hayes





What hides within!


Ok so take a really good look at this. What do you think it is? this is pretty stinking amazing. So for the past couple years Kate would say something to me and well, I would be like “speak up can’t understand what you are saying”. sometimes i would ask her to speak up more than a couple times to where she would start getting really agitated. This has been going on for forever and well I need to say sorry cause I use to blame her for mumbling 😉 . Well today Kate was telling me how she had done this ear candle thing and it was really cool, she insisted that we go and get some and try it. So Kate and I meandered down to the store and picked up a couple of these ear candles. When it comes to this kind of stuff I am always kind of skeptical and never really know if I believe it will work. With these things you lay on the ground light them on fire and just wait. kinda freaky really. I kept thinking to myself “my head is going to catch on fire.” They get real hot and some how suck the wax right out of your ears. I am just proud to say that I feel like a new man. I hear so much it is almost over whelming. that brown crap is sold wax. where that was in my ear is beyond me. You must be thinking, “do you ever clean your ears?” Yesss! I clean them all the time. who knows. Anyways I will endorse ear candles till i die.


I will seek his will not his power!

A simple quote yet a really deep thought. I read it in a little book called “tale of two Kings”. I have had this thought on the tip of my mind all day. In every conversation and every deed I have done today. It has been haunting me, enticing me to enter into it presence.  Like the bull and the red flag, Saying I dare you to come close. I dare you to charge.

I don’t know how many times I have found my self on my knees screaming out to God to change my circumstances, my feeling, my heart, my mind, my strength and so on and so on. I have cried and cried for Gods power. For him to do something, for him just to show up. I have challenged him over and over. Claiming if you are there then move. Prove your God. I have tested God, Cursed Him, even yelled at him in anger. I have sought his power over and over. I am not proud just being honest. I am amazed that God still delights in me.

I will seek his will not his power!

In 1 Corinthians 13 the chapter on love it says this-

“If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountains, but I have not love, I gain nothing. 13:2

There is a way to have the Power of God and not be in his will. We seek it all the time. Weather it be insecurities that drive us, or glory and fame or what ever. The power of god is something I think we should be carefully on asking. Sometimes he gives it. And sometimes it is the very thing that destroys us.

David was a man who sought after God and God alone. Even when Saul tried over and over to kill him, he never took his eyes off God. Through trial after trial he never cursed nor sought revenge. He trusted in the Will of his father to bring him through. He trusted that god’s will was sufficient to sustain his life. He sought Gods will and in the end God raised him up made him a king gave him all his power and called him a man after his own heart. David never used the power that he was given to his gain but gave it back when the time came for his life to move on. Wow!

I am at a place in my life that the will Of God is the only thing I need. I can’t even say I am here on my own, cause that would be dishonest, but more so, say God has brought me here. I have tried this Christian faith for so long on my own. I am tired and my heart is broken. My mind is numb and my legs are weak. I have failed so many times, and yet the truth is that failure is still something I will most likely find in the future. I am excepting that this brokenness that God has been taking me through is somehow for his glory. That this unraveled lump of yarn will someday be woven into a beautiful blanket. I am trusting that god is not done with me yet. That his will is not yet complete and no matter the storm I hope I can sustain the test.

God Willing


I will seek your will not your power!


Hang my locket around your neck,
Wear my ring on your finger.
Love is invincible facing danger and death.
Passion laughs at the terrors of hell.
The fire of love stops at nothing-
It sweeps everything before it.
Floodwaters can’t drown love,
Torrents of rain can’t put it out.
Love can’t be bought, love can’t be sold-
It’s not to be found in the marketplace.”

Song of Songs 8: 6-7

I am kind of awed by this passage. I came across it yesterday and was kind of stopped dead in my tracks. I have been studying love a lot lately, mostly because it is something I am not very good at. Jesus said it was the only way. That all else is nothing without it. The scriptures even go, as far as to say that god is love. My whole life I grew up thinking love was a feeling. Something that happens within me, but what I am learning is that it has nothing to do with any of that. It is something we are, a way of life. Jesus said we must die to ourselves, take up our own cross, and follow. In essence I believe he was saying that we must become love. Love is selfless. It is for the good of others. Take a look at “1 Corinthians 13”

If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’m bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled. When I was an infant at my mother’s breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good. We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then; see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us! But for right now, until that completeness, we have three thing to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.

1 Corinthians 13

Can I pray?

Jesus we are taken by your ways of life. I pray for you to take us deep into the essence of love. Let it become our way. Let it flood our minds and our hearts. Let it impassionate us. Let it become more than words on our tong. Let it consume us like a blazing fire and engulf everything around us. Transform us into what brings you glory. Transform us into your very essence and that is LOVE! Thanks and amen

Tubby tub tub!

So Cohen has decided that his favorite pass time is the bath tub (gets that from his mommy). He would literally stay in the tub all day if it wasn’t for his ever so growing hunger. Cohen loves to eat and as much as bubble taste good, string cheese and pickles are about the only thing that is better. He was taking a bath yesterday and I decided i couldn’t pass this one up. hope you enjoy this as much as i do.



Would you stop taking my picture. this is a personal time for me dada!


what do you think about facial hair!


num num!

4Just checkin to see if it is all there! 😉

My Music Pick of the Year!

So I consider myself to be a quite the music junky. I play music for a profession but I listen to music any chance i have. I like all kinds of music. Music is the way to the human heart if you ask me. Nothing speaks louder and nothing penetrates the walls that we build. I constantly am finding new music and most records are just a fad for me. I listen for a while then it grows old and I move on. There are just a few who really stick. those who’s songs go beyond the melody’s of life and become a sound track of the soul. I would have to say this is my pick of the year. “Bon Iver” it is not my normal pick of music cause it is kinda hard to even understand what he is saying. I love deep lyrics. but there is a mood to this record. something very haunting, and lovely. It is not a pop record and it won’t make you move. It is a beautiful piece of art and one of the soundtracks I believe will be with me for life. I love the whole record but “stacks” is my favorite. it is near the end. cheers and enjoy

Like Daddy Like Son (ok and mommy too)

Can you tell who is who?

Cohen Reid McDonald


The top is well my beautiful little boy Cohen Reid McDonald and the bottom is me.

kinda fun! at least I think so. 🙂

Mommy brought to my attention that she gets some of the credit! 🙂 I think she might be right.